Sunday, May 27, 2007

It is Sunday again...

Yes, I feel crumby, again. My asthma was acting up and I was having a hard time breathing this morning...I woke up too late to go to church...but I couldn't breathe any way. It is so cold it here at night when it rains makes our air conditioners air REALLLy cold. Austin and Alex are at Grandma's for the weekend. Alex and Ethan leave with their dad on thursday night or friday moring this week. Very sad to see them go. Unlike lots of folks, I love to spend time with my kids.
But they need to spend time with their dad too...

Well better go for now,

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Just another sad Sunday here...

Just tired of lots of stuff and today just keeps on getting here. I don't really know what I want to do with my life so I just keeping surviving it daily to wake up and find there is another day waiting to happen. We didn't make it to church this morning for what ever other reason...reason are a dime a dozen. I am in a dilemma about where to go to church at. My kids youth leader went to another church, and my kids just adore him...and the church he is going to is one where my friend goes so it would be ok, but he won't go there, and it is still too far to drive with gas prices like they are....and we are still committed to the church we joined unless we resign...but I hate to hurt their feelings because they are such a great bunch of I guess all that leaves for me to do is to wait and pray and let God lead me where I need to be. Although for some crazy reason he has left me in this marriage and only he knows why. Its not to my benefit and I am so tired and unhappy here that it isn't even funny anymore.
Maybe he will fix it all soon.