Just tired of lots of stuff and today just keeps on getting here. I don't really know what I want to do with my life so I just keeping surviving it daily to wake up and find there is another day waiting to happen. We didn't make it to church this morning for what ever other reason...reason are a dime a dozen. I am in a dilemma about where to go to church at. My kids youth leader went to another church, and my kids just adore him...and the church he is going to is one where my friend goes so it would be ok, but he won't go there, and it is still too far to drive with gas prices like they are....and we are still committed to the church we joined unless we resign...but I hate to hurt their feelings because they are such a great bunch of folks....so I guess all that leaves for me to do is to wait and pray and let God lead me where I need to be. Although for some crazy reason he has left me in this marriage and only he knows why. Its not to my benefit and I am so tired and unhappy here that it isn't even funny anymore.
Maybe he will fix it all soon.